Some of you may know that the activities at Drager Farms have come under the scrutiny of the township and the Ag Preserve Board. The activities “not in alignment with a preserved farm” include Shakti Healing Therapies’ yoga and meditation classes, along with the Hipcamp field, and the farm-to-table dining events Nathan and I were trying to get off the ground (which btw… went NOWHERE).
I am unsure of what the future holds for the studio or anything else Nathan and I were trying to do. We were hopeful that by renovating the barn, it could provide some extra income to pave the way for Nathan to get out of UPS, quit driving 60 hours a week, AND have the farm to run on top of it all. But that reality seems to be just out of reach while my own work feels like it’s on hold again too.
We are applying for Event Barn status and will have to see where this process leads us and the offerings at Shakti Healing Therapies. I hope everything will be ironed out by early 2020.
‘Devastating’ is the term that comes to mind when I think of how things went down in September. It felt like things were just starting to gel a little bit with the addition of more yoga classes, a community growing up around the monthly meditation groups, and more people finding out about the private breathwork sessions I was offering. And then, all of a sudden, it was ripped out from under me in one fell swoop!
In response, my lifetime companions of hopelessness, powerlessness, and depression have come roaring back into my daily life. This loss of control seems to have triggered the symptoms of C-PTSD again.
[ Will I ever be free of this??? ]
To compound it, I lost my stepdad to Stage IV lung cancer at the end of the month which brought up a whole host of conflicting feelings that I’m still trying to sort out too.
So for now, I will continue to work on managing the symptoms of PTSD and depression with the practices I currently have, peeling off a few more layers of pain and hopefully finding more forgiveness for myself and my family. I am also going to be furthering my education on this topic so when the time comes, I can help others by walking this path before them.
I will be taking a limited amount of appointments for breathwork only until I feel ready for more. I am also limiting my social activities in person and online while I regain a bit of equilibrium.
Some of the attendees of the Full Moon Meditation group will be continuing the monthly meetups at Union Meeting House in Marietta, starting November 12th at 6:30 pm.